It's been a long time since I posted anything in this blog, but that's actually a good thing. Within the past couple months I've published my first novel, rededicated my life and talents to God, and have made many changes in my life. I won't go into all of them here, you'll see them as time progresses. What I will write about is based on something my friend Don Smith told me to blog about. He suggested I write a simple blog about the three things I enjoy about writing. I can't write just about writing, the entire creative process and how my faith interacts with it and how that then interfaces with my life is more what I feel I should say.
Creativity comes from the talents that God gives us. In my case it's definitely not administration of a publishing company. It's writing and drawing, the entire creative process. I've made the mistake several times in my life of trying to be a publisher. I can publish my own work well enough, but when it comes to others I fall saddeningly short. Howard Kent, Christina Cheek, and many others can attest to this fallacy in my life. I definitely do NOT have a talent of administration of any kind.
So that leaves the Creativity of creating, writing, and drawing. It's something I enjoy, something that helps keep me busy, and something that I now hope to have the drive to complete. I've left behind a series of projects half finished in my life. Heck, I've even left the TRUTH behind in my life, only to return to it again. The truth is Salvation through Jesus Christ, and living as a Christian should. Some people may disagree that I've made it to this place, but for the first time I am settled.
James 1:8 states that a double minded (can't make up his mind) man is unstable in all his ways. For the past 3+ years I've lived that. Yet within the past two months since my rededication to Jesus Christ and what was in Acts called "The Way" I have experienced a paradigm shift that continues to this day. Not only in my personal life; reading the bible and praying. But in my professional. I backed out of one project very recently because the man I was partnered with was double minded. I feel bad about the timing of my leaving, but I feel peace about the decision. There were many warning signs that I should have quit earlier, one of the funniest being when this gentleman stated "My cat's head of PR and wants to know if it's okay to make you one of the leaders on the ###### Comics facebook page."
I won't mention any names, or give any other clues to this persons identity. The timing of our departure from a professional relationship could have been better, but the result has been a return to the work that I enjoy.
I'm currently working on a Comic Book. Yep, you've all heard that before. I feel bolder now that I am settled. I have a peace in my heart that surpasses all understanding, and I have quit sitting on the fence between God and the World. I had to make this decision you see, because my life was unmanageable without Christ. I realized this, I saw this. But it wasn't me who revealed it. It was the Spirit of God that spoke with a still small voice inside of me. I had a choice to listen or not to, and Thank the Lord I chose to listen.
I've returned to the Church that trained me. I've reknit old ties that had long been dormant. The faith that I have is strong and steadfast in a way it hasn't been before. And I'm not afraid.
So how does that mix in with the Creative process? Very simple. It gives me the drive that I have lacked before, the boldness to complete the project that I am beginning. I don't want to brag about anything though, if anything I want to brag about it's the forgiveness through Jesus Christ. I just know that as I move on in faith and listen to His Voice in my life (Through the Bible and prayer) I will be more than a conqueror.
This particular project has roots long ago. Just as Beyond Mortality does. What this project is, well, is the comic book version of several of the similar ideas I had that didn't quite work out with Beyond Mortality. In fact I have considered removing Beyond Mortality from sale as of this point due to the fact that it was rushed. But the fact remains that I did complete a novel, and that fact helps me move forward in a way I haven't quite experienced before.
My wife has always tried to tell me that I could do anything that I set my mind to. Me being of low self-esteem and a double mind never believed her until now. I look forward to the chances that are in front of me, and I love the fact that I have returned to what I love best: my hearts desire to write and draw comic books.
I will write more soon, I promise.
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